day 145

well this week was much like last week. lots of dissapointment. this week has been one of the hardest weeks of the whole shabang.. we are finding out that more and more people are lying to us and have some other reason as to why they dont come to church. this week for example, we confronted one our investigators moms, she wont consent to her sons baptism. she is hiding him and always lies to us so she wont have to face us and be confounded by the spirit. evil people. next, one of our other investigators, she cant get permission also. so the investigators that do have permission, just dont choose to come to church. it really hurts. Last night was extremly hard.  so this morning, i decided to pray hardcore. i asked for help and comfort through this hard time. i am always learning that the lord has endless power. and i can always ask for help from him, and as long as im living worthily, there shouldnt be any reason for me not to receive his help. There have been countless times in my mission where i thought i couldnt do it, or i had extreme doubts about myself. but with sincere prayer and a humble heart, ive been received by the lord. 1 Nephi 3:7. this scripture is so true. i love reading my scriptures everyday. im sad that i couldnt realize the power that they can give if you just read them. and plus, reading them is free. If people would just realize that in this country, i think they would have easier lives.

So this morning i was kinda moping about trying to win the battle with satan, and i started reading letters from J, and other things that elder wood had given me, i realized that my blessings are far greater than my troubles. as long as i count my blessings, i beat satan. so when ever i feel something bad or have a bad experience, i count my blessings and always, always my troubles turn around.

What's the good of the bad. That's what Sis. Pajeda always says. i didnt understand it for the longest time. then she said it in cebuano and i understood it. It should be, "whats the good IN the bad." its like one of those glass half full things. im always saying that to myself.(but i try to say it in a Cardoso philippine accent.) hahaha.

so i saw the pics of Jens. in the words of Edna Mode "my gosh he's gotten fat" hahahahah. i'm not sure if thats mean anymore. people here use "your fat" as a compliment or as a way of saying, your fat, you have food, you do well for yourself. so he is prolly doing well for himself :)

well i will always try to look on the bright side of life. oh and i hit 5 months on the 19th whooooo :) crazy!!!
i still have to do my laundry. ughhh... hahaha
mom im still eating lots of food.(rice) and im still alive so i consider myself ok.:)

I love you so much.
oh and ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! i feel bad that its super late but late's better then never right?